It is now February – where did January go? – so I’m a bit behind but along with a long list of New Year Resolutions, I have chosen a word to inspire me this year. It has taken me some time to think of that word as one word never seemed enough. But I’ve finally settled on:
Just a simple word, yet for me, I feel it says everything that I want 2015 to be.
Believe in myself – I’m my own worst critic and always feel that I’m not doing my best, that there’s something more that I could be doing or be doing better. I don’t believe that I am succeeding in any aspects of my life and have doubts that I will do any better in the future.
Rather than being negative, this year, I am going to be positive by believing that I am doing well and can continue to do well. I will also believe that I can achieve what I set my sights on, whether this is a personal or work goal. I will believe that I am strong enough and have the ability to succeed.
Believe in God – As a Christian, I am ashamed to say that when everything is going wrong, I don’t always believe that God is in control and it will all work out for good. When I look back, it is possible to see that, but I need to believe more when things aren’t going to plan (or at least to my plan).
And as this verse says, “Everything is possible for him who believes”. So I should cast out doubt and believe that God is in control and has a great plan for my life.
Believe in my children – Sometimes I don’t think I give them enough credit. I might ask them if they have done their homework, to which they reply with yes, but in my mind I’m wondering whether to believe them or not. Or when they say what they are doing when they are out, I have a niggle that they may be doing things that I disapprove of instead of what they told me. So far, they have not given me a reason not to believe them so I need to start trusting in them more. They are fantastic children and I need to believe that they can make the right decisions for themselves.
Believe in my writing – I wrote 50,000 words of a novel ten years ago. I still have it on a backup hard-drive. I wrote it in a month and had every intention to write the second half within 6 months. But, the more that I re-read it, the more I hated it. I believed that I was an awful writer and would never write a novel, let alone get one published. Despite going on a creative writing course 4 years ago, I didn’t attempt any writing again until November 2014. I now have 26,000 words written but have hit the same problem – I have re-read it and think it is terribly written. So now I’m in a dilemma of whether to keep going and finish it or dump it onto the backup hard-drive so that never gets touched again.
Believing that I can finish it and that it will be any good is very hard but if I don’t believe that I can be a writer, I will never achieve that goal to become one.
Believe in my business – I ran two successful businesses in Exeter but haven’t been brave enough to start either of them again in Telford. I told myself I would have at least one trading again by January. But the time went by and it hasn’t happened.
However, I have just started another business with another brand but am already having doubts that it will be successful or whether I can make any sales.
Then there is the business idea that I am very excited about but won’t have any support networks (unlike the others which are already established brands). There are many doubts as to whether I can even get it from an idea to a product.
However, if I don’t believe in my businesses, who will? I need to cast off doubts, believe in my businesses and believe that I am a businesswoman who can achieve.
So, my focus this year will be to BELIEVE. What is yours?