I haven’t written a blog post for a few weeks and for the first time, my excuse is not that I have been too busy.
For the last 6 weeks, I have reduced my employed days to just once a fortnight. Yes, I know that’s hardly anything and just typing that makes me feel lazy. So what have I been doing instead?
I have also started running the Mums in the Know Telford website along with the Facebook and Twitter accounts, so this has taken up some time in my week.
That’s my work – mostly self-employed and taking up less time a week than when I was teaching. So what else have I been filling up my time doing?
I have been recharging, refocusing and refreshing myself. Taking a step back and breathing.
Those who know me well, will know that I’m a bit of a workaholic so slowing down hasn’t been easy. But, it has been necessary.
Part of the reason that I so dramatically cut down my employed hours was because I was becoming so stressed and tired. Having gone back to work when Alex was days old (even if it was just marketing and promoting my self-employed work), which was weeks after I became a single mum, it was starting to catch up on me. Over those two and a half years, I had never worked less than 3 jobs – some employed and some self-employed – while trying to take care of 6 children. Add into that a divorce, a house sale and moving the family 200 miles, I guess it was no wonder that I was worn out.
I haven’t worked every evening, which has felt very strange. So instead of picking up the laptop as soon as the little ones were tucked up in bed, I have spent at least two evenings a week relaxing with my older daughters. I must admit that it has been a bit difficult not to work every evening as I always have this voice that says that I have things that I should be doing instead of chilling out, but I also feel better for taking breaks, even if I am not being as productive.
I have even had a bit of me time. I have been working towards my Silver Ballroom and Latin dance exam, which I took yesterday. I have had coffees out with my mum during the week. I have even managed to have a massage treatment. I did feel a little guilty about spending time and money on myself but it has also felt amazing.
I am now at a point where I am beginning to feel that I know what I want to do and have a vision of this. I know that I will have to put in the work to get there but I also hope to be able to balance it better so that I am not as stressed and exhausted as I have been in the past.
Sometimes, taking a step back and breathing is the most important thing you can do.